My struggles and achievements towards my weight-loss goal.
Ugh. I was doing so good until i got sick. I haven’t been to the gym since then. Slowly im going back to my old ways. I havent been going crazy on points, but i havent been eating fruits or drinking the water. I’ve been sitting at home, slowly slipping back into depression. It’s much harder for me to get up and go to the gym. Why?
Why am i so unhappy? So empty?
Hello all, It’s week five! Weigh in number five.
I must admit, i have not gone to the gym since Friday. I’ve been sick with a cold, and i have not really been feeling very active. I attempted to start the Callanetics last night, and i only did the stomach exercises which kicked butt. You can really feel them working, but it doesn’t hurt your back or your neck when you do them! I think those ab workouts are better than the ones i do at the gym with the trainers. I’ll keep working on them.
Anywho! I got my WW scale yesterday afternoon, right on time for WI. This morning after i had a shower, and everything I got on my scale in my undies. I’m 166.7lb! Total loss of 9.3lbs since i started five weeks ago. I can’t believe how fast im going down the scale!
Yay!
I hope everyone is doing well!
Thanks for reading!
I’m going to go take my meds, and get to bed.
Hello everyone!
I’m here to update you all on my progress. I’ve been feeling quite sick. I’ve got a cold. I’ve also been really bad at keeping up with my water, and fruit servings. Whenever i drink water it hurts my throat. Yesterday, i realized that i’ve been drinking only water for quite a while now. I can also see a diffrence in my body now. It’s kind of cool. I’m still working on my back, and legs. I finally have my callanetics DVD back, and i will start either tonight or Monday.
I really need to start working on my abs. I’ve heard that the callanetics can make you lose inches in only 10 hours of doing the program. Perhaps its time to test this out ey? I’ll take some pictures before i start, and i’ll post before and after 10 hours. Tee hee.
I ordered my WW scale as a treat for myself for reaching 168lbs. It should be getting here sometime this week. I just noticed that my gym has a WW scale! That’s pretty awesome.
OH! I recently bought Clearsil Ultra Daily face wash, and let me tell ya. It’s absolutely awesome. I mean, i’ve been washing my face twice a day with it and it’s worked great. I wake up and scrub my face with the St. Ives Apricot Scrub for sensitive skin, and then i have Aveeno Clear Complexion face wash, and finally i do 2 pumps of the Clearasil Ultra, and i’m ready to go. I use the Aveeno Clear Complexion face wash because i had not realized that i had that much left over. I had bought the Clearsil Ultra because my mom said i was running out of the Aveeno. I’m trying to finish it off. I’m not sure if that has helped with clearing my acne, but when i used it alone i didnt see a diffrence. Who knows?
Today was the day. The day I had to come face to face with the scale. I got up early, and had a whole wheat bagel with cream cheese. I would recommend Thomas 100% whole wheat bagels with Kraft Low fat cream cheese (only 2 points for 1TBSP, which is a good amount).
I have this ridiculous routine on WI days. I try not to drink much water, and eat super light before i WI. I always wear the same clothe when i WI, and i take off my shoes. I went to the gym at about 1PM, and i have this new-found love for the elliptical. I usually go on the
bike and try to run on the treadmill, but the treadmill’s really hurt my knees and shins when i try to run. The elliptical don’t hurt my knees, and they work out more parts of your body at once. I was on the elliptical for a good 45 minutes, and then i did a few weigh machines to work out my back, butt, legs, arms, and thighs.
After i felt i was drenched enough with sweat, i walked into the locker room. There it was, the scale. On most days the scale is my enemy, but not today. Today we became the best of friends! I did the usual. I took off my shoes, and hood. The scale read 168.3! I was so happy that i could run out screaming! I called my mom Immediately after i left the gym , and told her the good news. She wasn’t at all excited. That kind of killed the mood for me. She said “Well, if you hadn’t been eating like a maniac you probably would’ve lost more weight.” Ugh. What ever.
I kept trying to think of how i found out about the weight watchers, and i was so thankful that i did find it.
I actually found Weight Watchers when i was browsing www.everydiet.org. (hence my blog name.) I usually would browse that site, and choose a diet.. Try it out and fail, and on to the next one. It just feels wonderful to know that SOMETHING works. I didn’t gain this weight overnight, and i can’t expect to lose it overnight either. I just want to jump for joy, and run to everyone i know who is struggling like i was and say, “Hey! There is a way! You can have your cake, and eat it too! (just not all the cake…)”. I’ve already told my cousins, but they don’t really want to “waste” money on it. It’s so worth it. I don’t regret a thing.
It feels sooooo awesome. I CAN eat pizza. I CAN eat ANYTHING i want, and still lose weight. I don’t even feel like I’m on a diet, and knowing that i CAN eat anything i want helps to calm my cravings. It might be slower, but the days seem to just be flying by!
I can’t believe that im actually this committed to going to the gym. It took me a whole lot of effort to go sign up, but ever since then.. I don’t think about it twice. I just go. When i go to the gym i don’t think of it as a burden. I just set my self goals. I started off on a treadmill for a few minutes, and I’d get out of breathe. I wouldn’t force myself. I’d just say. “Alright, tomorrow I’m going to make it 15 minutes without stopping.” These mini-goal have helped me. I also say to myself, “Alright, I’ll keep working on these 2lbs, but next week i’ll move up to 3lbs”. I don’t over work myself because i dont want to turn it into a negative experience. Any little bit counts, and that’s what keeps me going.
Yesterday, i went to pilates and when i started i could do this one exercise. It’s when you lay down on your side on a Yoga mat, and you take the hand that is closest to the floor and wrap it around your ribcage. Using your other hand to support you, hold it at a 90 degree and angle and lift yourself as if you are doing a push up, but just lifting your upper body. I could not do it at all. Guess what? I did it yesterday, and that made me feel great!
ahh. No make up
:3
Day before WW.
Probably not much of a diffrence, but i’ll get there in due time. I look terrible in theses pictures, but whatever.
Thanks for reading!
- Cellulite -
I’ve just purchased the Nivea Good-Bye Cellulite 30-day Body Beauty Program. Its a box that comes with a Gel, and 30 dietary supplement capsules. According to the box, the gel is supposed to reduce the appearance of the cellulite within 4 weeks. It is applied to the thighs, buttocks, and stomach. The dietary supplement is supposed to help the body support lean muscle mass. On the back of gel bottle, it says to target stubborn cellulite with the Good-Bye Cellulite patches. I’ll pick some up tomorrow. I’ll be tracking the progress weekly, and hopefully by the end of the 4weeks i’ll have legs with less cellulite! (According to the box, this works better with a healthy diet, and exercise.)
I was watching the Tyra Banks show a long time ago, and they did a review of this on four women (if i remember correctly). The end results were amazing! I just hope that it works on me.
I just had a shower, and applied it. It’s not sticky, and smoothes on pretty easily. It doesn’t have a tingly feeling like some creams for cellulite have. It absorbs quickly. Its been aleast 20 minutes after i applied it and my skin feels super smooth. I really like the smell too. It has a “Fresh” scent. I took one of the capsules, and i’ll take one tonight with dinner. According to the box you shouldn’t take more than 3 a day. I’ll take 3 daily.
Well. I’ll check back in next week. (I did take a picture, but i’ll post it next week.)
- Stretch Marks -
I’ll be using Palmer’s Cocoa Butter formula Massage lotion for Stretch Marks. This product is to help reduce the appearance of stretch marks. According to the bottle, It lubricates the skin to help it reatin its natural elasticity and moisture. It doesn’t have a specific notice-results time on the bottle. So i’m going to see how my stretch marks look in 4 weeks. I’ll be using this twice a day.
When i applied this i put it mainly on my stomach (it’s my problem area). I have long stretchmarks going down my stomach from rapid weight gain. I smoothed some around my lower back, arms, and around my breast (Stretchmark prone areas) to prevent stretch marks.
It’s a non-greasy formula! Yay.
I’ll check in next week.
I know it’s early. It’s not WI, and i guess you guys already have figured out that i get anxious.. After working out i hopped on the scale. I was ready to know how much i gained after going to Edo’s (Japanese Resaurant) and to my surprise i lost! I weighed in at 168!
Whoa! I’m not completly convinced since i’ve still got 2 more days to go. So i’ll just relax, and wednesday i’ll rejoice if my weigh has stayed the same. If it does, i’ll be so happy. It’s great to be seeing the 160’s!
YAY! Finally my hardwork has paid off?!
We shall see on wednesday!
I couldn’t help but wonder how many of my points i ate yesterday at that Japanese Restaurant. I kept wondering while i was in class. I just got home, and i just had to finally see. I think i almost passed out when i figured out i had eaten approximately 43.5 points! Probably more!
I decided to go food shopping. I found the weight watchers ice cream, the cookie dough kind, and i squeeled for joy. I can tell some people in the aisle were looking at me like if i was some kind of weirdo. I also stocked up on WW Yogurt. I found the holy grail that is SPRAY BUTTER! I cant belive it’s not butter. 0 points! I also bought some “Smart Ones WW Macaroni n cheese frozen dinners 6 Points each.
I bought the 100 Calorie packs of the 94% Reduced Fat Popcorn. Starting tomorrow. I’m going to be alot more anal about my journal keeping, and tracking my points. Calories and all. (At least i’ll try)
Now about the Jeans. For some reason, my mom decided to buy me jeans. This is something that she doesn’t do often (buy me clothe). Now, these Jeans. I guess, it’s what is in style now? They are tight at the bottom. Ugh. They were the most annoying jeans ever. At first i felt kind of cool. I felt “Hip”, but i don’t wear jeans often. I like softer material. (They are nice and comfy) Anyways, these jeans were so tight on my calves! I had to struggle to pull them up. When i first tried them on i didn’t think they’d fit because they were so tight when i was putting my legs in. Somehow, i managed to squeeze them over my legs, and well yeah..That’s the last time i try that. I felt that i looked so ridiculous. Tight pants are so not my thing. Geez. I just felt so “Exposed”. The way that the jeans hugged my legs, made me feel like everyone was starring.
Anyways. I’m going to go take a nap! I’m beat.
Well. I didn’t go to the gym on Thursday because by the time i got home from work it was 9PM, and i had to write an essay. I definitely did not go yesterday because i went out to a Japanese restaurant. It was amazing! I didn’t eat anything all day to save up my points for it. Well, 58 g of Whole Wheat cereal and 1 cup of milk in the morning. I drank water for the rest of the day. At the Japanese restaurant i ate fried rice, 5 pieces of shrimp, hibachi chicken, and i drank an apple martini. I don’t even want to think of how many points that meal was. I’m not even going to track it. I’m not going to expect any weight loss this week at all. I’m so tempted to just chug a bunch of Metamucil, and try to flush everything out of my system. Although, that’s probably not the best idea!
I’m going to keep my points low for the rest of the week, and just make do with salad.
Well, i’m off to my Saturday class.
Good luck, everyone!
So there i was. Standing just a few feet away from the moment that would either make or break my evening. As i slowly slipped off my work-out hoodie and placing it on the floor, I kept my eyes fixed on the scale. All these thoughts popped in my head. “Did i lose? Did i gain? Will the fact that i just ate 1hour prior change the outcome?”. I took of my shoes, and finally i took a deep breathe and hopped on the scale.
It was 173.0. Grrrrrr. My weight loss for the week was 0.1 pounds. No big deal i guess. I was just hoping to be past these dang 173 and 174. I’ve got plans on friday to go to a Japanese restaurant with my co-workers. I will save up all my points for that night. I’ll only eat salad all day! lol If i don’t loose in the next two weeks, i’m going to seriously consider starting the wendie plan. I said i was going to but i decided not to until i hit a plateau.
Hmmmm. One more week and i’ll put up my picture. One of me before, and one of me now. I’m nervous! I’m not very photogenic. Oh well. Well, i’m off to do some homework!
With weigh-in day week three just 2 days away. I’ve become more anxious. I went to the gym tonight. GO ME! I even double dipped. I went to pilates, and immediately to Cardio Kickboxing. I’m beat. I tried to stay away from the scale, i swear i did! I just.. couldn’t help hopping on when i walked by it. It was 174-point-something, but i immediately hopped off. I did a mental finger snap at the scale and thought to myself, YEAH WELL, YOU CAN’T MEASURE ANYTHING ELSE BUT WEIGHT THAT HAS CHANGED. (Sort of a way to make me feel better.) It wasn’t even my weigh-in day! I also recall reading on the instructions that your weight-loss should be a steady 2 pound per week AFTER the three weeks on the flex plan. My three weeks are almost over! OH GOD! ARE THERE GOING TO BE CHANGES ?! Hope so. I’ve got a calve muscle! Maybe, just maybe that’s where the 1lb came from. I’m very proud of that muscle. It seems to have grew overnight. I make my mom touch it. It creeps her out, but hey. I’ve had skinny calves forever! (It made my legs look somewhat like a chicken drum stick :c)
My mom always finds a way to piss me off. I don’t know why she even bothers to comment on what i eat. She is trying to restrict what i eat even more. First off, It’s MY “DIET”. I have the say on what i WANT to eat, and what i DONT.
I told her i wanted a whole -wheat bagel with low fat cream cheese in the morning, with my 1 cup of milk, and a banana. She said that I should eat cereal because that’s too big of a breakfast for someone who is on a diet. Instead, she wants me to eat 96 grams of cereal…. Ugh. That pisses me off.
Then she has the nerve to say, “WELL IF YOU ARE GOING TO EAT SO MUCH WHY DONT YOU JUST QUIT UR DIET?”. ( So much? I don’t think that’s alot at all..) Well, then what? Go back to eating fried crap, and buying burgers everyday? She makes no sense. I just wish she wouldn’t comment on my diet at all. She also calls me into her room when i get home from the gym to “see me”. What she is actually saying is, “I want to see if you are skinny yet”. Ugh. It’s so annoying.
It’s like she has some sort of weird fantasy about what a diet should be like. Where in her fantasy diet you only eat bird seeds, and water. Also, when you go to the gym, you come back and automatically grow a six-pack. Sorry to burst your bubble, mom, It takes time. GRRR. She doesn’t even take in to consideration how i feel when she says things like this. She stopped buying bananas because her friend told her that bananas make you fat. Seriously, what the hell. Ironically enough, She is fat. Her friends are fat, but they still love to comment on people who are fat, and on diets.
When i was thinner back in high school. I was still not thin enough for her. Allie, like you commented on my previous blog, I sometimes wonder if and when i lose all the desired weight. Will i see my NEW self, or just old fat me? I’m sure that even if i was all skin and bones, my mother would find someway to make me feel fat. <sarcasm>YAY for my support system</end sarcasm>. (Consists of one friend, and this blog).
Whatever.
I’ve been beat with schoolwork. I just wanted to update before i went to bed. 1:15AM. Goodnight, and Good luck.
Thank you so much for your support!
